Back so soon,,

I know I just posted but I had to write some more.

There is no reason I can't do this! No reason. There are people who are addicted to drugs and in way worse situations than mine. Adn sometimes they come back from the brink of no return and change it all around. Why can't I? I can. i will. i have to. Today can be the day. Today can be the first day of the rest of my life. As cliche as that sounds it's the truth. I have to work on my, I have to get some help. but I can do this. No more effing excuses. No more shoulda coulda woulda! Here I go. I'm doing it. I will do this. I have to believe it I have to do it. I guess I just need to get this down and out of my mind before it explodes lol. Off for a walk.